There are three new holes in my belly.
There are four others –
One from a tubal ligation in 2009
Two from a hysterectomy in 2014
And another from an embolization in 2019.
They have all healed and faded somewhat
And serves as a reminder that Endometriosis is a battle-
The inside and the outside of my belly
is the battleground
In pre-op
Tourniquets choke my arm
long needles burrow beneath my flesh –
hitting bones instead of veins.
I cringe and I cry and
blood trailed down my arm
onto crisp white sheets
In the Operation room
Medicine erase my memories
A machine breathes for me
And a doctor punctures three new holes into my belly.
He searches my insides
And burst a large cyst
Fulgurate Endometriosis
And sliced my ovary from where it attached itself to my bowel.
In the recovery room
a nurse ask about my pain level
scans my name tag
And inserts the magical potion of pain relief into my IV
Chris smiles at me
And I remember:
this morning
when we arrived at Sacred Heart Medical, dawn had yet to break.
The sky was charcoal, the moon was half and bright
and a few early birds sang in the trees nearby.
There are three new holes in my belly
but soon, the ache will subside
the wounds will heal
and I will know that
I am a fighter, a survivor and my own damn superhero.
Kadine
3 Comments
Levon S Thomas
Oh dear… friend and sister. There are no words that can express your strength. You are an amazing person. I will keep you and your family in prayer. Truly love your blog. You inspire.
Love your Levonnie
Ontonio Christie
You are also my superhero Kadine! #fighter
Kadinechristie
This right here. A comment from you my love, makes me smile so deep and so wide.